A hodgy-podgy post that will probably make little to no sense.
-Our truck is the bane of my existence. It’s a thorn in my fucking side. It doesn’t run right now, it needs a new clutch which will be a minimum of $750 to fix. The truck is only worth about $1000. Yet, we still owe $6000 on it. And it’s not even fucking driveable. What a useless, expensive, hunk of metal that’s turned out to be. I was all excited because it just needed a clutch adjustment and Derek was going to drive it to work and I was going to have the car during the day. A vehicle! So if I want to go somewhere I wouldn’t have to walk! I could do something during the day! What a concept! But no, not anymore. Now I remain stuck in this bloody apartment all day every day. Fucking truck. I hate that piece of shit. Pissed? Me? Nah.
-What is with the lack of professionalism in people these days? I’m writing for an ezine that’s strictly volunteer. You still have to apply to participate, but you’re not getting paid for it. That doesn’t bother me, I think it’s good experience. What I do on a volunteer basis still reflects on me. My name is attached to it and I take pride in my work. Why aren’t other people the same? The stupid thing was supposed to be published ten days ago and nobody can seem to pull their shit together long enough to do it. It reflects so poorly on it. It makes me not want to participate any longer. However, I signed up for a job and while other people may not feel obligated to fulfill their duties, I do.
-Online drama is the most ridiculous thing in the world. I’ve been prowling for new message boards and everywhere I go it’s drama drama drama. What is the point? Why the need to stir shit up? Here’s what I want. I want to create my own message board where I can boot members at my own discretion. What would be my rules? Use full sentences and paragraph breaks in your posts. What? Typing full words is beyond you? Then my forum isn’t for you. Be respectful of other’s opinions. Don’t agree with what someone else says? That’s fine. Be reasonable and attack the issue, not the person. Is that a difficult concept? It appears to be. Don’t be clique-y. If you want your board to be your own personal friends and groupies, then close the damn board and don’t make it open to newbies. If you’re just going to exclude them or ignore them, or worse, flame them, don’t even bother letting them join. If I knew anything about running and designing a board, I’d so be on it already. Alas, I know nothing of PHP. Is there anybody who does who wants to set the board up and run it with me? Meh.
-The future is forever fucking cloudy. When are we moving back to the states? Well, it was five years and then four and now Derek seems to think we can do it in 18 months. Uhm, I don’t think so. Maybe in two years, but not that soon. He thinks we’ll be able to start trying for a baby next month. Would love to, but I doubt the doc is going to give me approval for that one. People seem to react like my having a baby is going to be the easiest thing and I can just do it. Do you forget that I have diabetes? That one slip-up in the first 12 weeks of pregnancy (hell, before I even know I’m pregnant) can cause dangerous birth defects? This is a serious thing and I can’t fuck it up. I hate pressure.
Meh. My head is a giant clusterfuck hence the last of posty goodness lately. They’d all be like this if I’d kept posting.